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why the blogging silence?

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watch, MK

 

It was an unintentional blogging hiatus. I wanted to blog but no desire to turn on laptop or take outfit photos or upload or resize them for the blog.

This was a late summer outfit. I did not get a chance to post it before the craziness of  September-October-November.

 

Seems like, hubs and I went to our 10 year anniv trip, then I was off to Vancouver for conference. It was a busier autumn than what I would have wanted.

notes for confession

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Gucci Soho disco bag

cocktail ring via zulily

I was late for church. 

We have done so well every Sunday despite the craziness of trying to get out of the house. But this morning, I wasn't just late. I was very, very late. 

My boys made it 30 minutes earlier because of  Scout Sunday. They're prepared!

My girls and I were late... And it's all because of my pure negligence. 

smiling here... but not when entering during the readings. 

Because I overslept. I woke up but still decided to cuddle with Lucy. 

Because I read my email for a couple of minutes instead of heading downstairs. 


I decided to take a shower instead of just changing. 


Then when the baby woke up I knew she had to be fed. But I kept going and prepping for Mass. 
The baby cried when I was about to place her in the carrier. I cannot bear hearing a baby cry specially since I know what she needs. 


So I sat and fed her. I fixed Isabel's hair with one hand. Never done that before but you gotta do what you gotta do. At that point, I knew we were gonna be late. Ugh.
 

Lucy ate so fast. Thanks, sweetheart. 
And finally we were out the door. 

Boots via zulily

cropped sweater, old.

headband from SMJ (thanks!)

One thing about being late is that all the great parking spots are gone. I still went to the school parking even though my gut instinct told me there will be NO spots. I did anyway.

I passed once and confirmed what I initially thought and then turned around to park on the street. 

I had to parallel park which took another couple of minutes. The walk was a tad slower than I anticipated with a preschooler and the baby. 

It's not their fault. I take all the blame for being late. 

cropped sweater, old, from express

Boots via zulily

headband, similar 

cocktail ring via zulily

skirt 

Gucci Soho disco bag

I so needed the grace for this day and coming week. Once, I skipped communion because it didn't feel right as I was gone most of the Mass. I was working and on-call. I missed the readings and part of the homily. So I didn't go to communion. I felt so so sad then. I missed the grace. I missed receiving the Lord. :(


Today, my heart was telling me I cannot receive communion.... But I did anyway. I told myself I needed the grace. I didn't know how I could endure a week without receiving the Lord. 


So that's another confession... Maybe I should not have received communion since I was VERY late. But I did anyway. 





Linking up with Holly, Sarah, Doranda, Morgan, Leanne, Elizabeth, Elena,  Madeline,  Jaymie,  Sydney, Danielle, Grace, Brooke.

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c'est la vie - a confession

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Sweatshirt, cest la vie!

Jeans

Mocs

Handbag

Lipstick 

I am admitting it. 

I am overwhelmed.

There.

you read it.

that's the confession. 

This feeling has been brewing for awhile. Lots of changes (of course!) with the birth of our 4th. But then, I should keep powering through, right? Didn't I go into med school. Did I not do residency? I have four kids. I am a mom. Aren't moms supposed to be superwoman or something? so.. I just kept powering through. Maybe muddling through?

Muddling through is really NOT my style though. I don't feel good about it. I don't feel that I am doing a good enough job when I just "muddle through."

It started the week of wards. The routine went out the window. I did not like that one bit.


The children got a bug. It went around the family. I got it.
I was on call... which meant sleep got messed up.
I was sick so hubs and I missed our X3 workouts. The congestion gave me this pressure headache in the morning which made working out unbearable. I pop a DVD in, 5 minutes later, I was dizzy and headache was worse.

So I just said, forget it. I am sick. Sleep is important. Rest is important.

Two weeks later, I am finally recovered from this viral illness, but I am STILL behind. I am not back to working out which I realized is so, so important for my mental well being.  I just need that 30 minutes of sweating out the worries and punching my reflection and giving it all with those burpees. And weight lifting, there's something about it that gives me all the happy hormones!

A mom of 4 asked the ages of my children. I said they are young: 6,4,2 and 5 months old. She said that is the best time.... 

insert my face with eyes bugging out.

She continues: it just gets harder as they get older and talking and going to school.


insert my face now with jaw on the floor: REALLY??? REALLY, REALLY?

great.

awesome.

perfect.

way to go, anxiety. You just heard something that lit the fire. 


Parenting loves throwing us curveballs. Agree?
Just when I think* I have some kind of routine or handle on things, then another challenge comes up.

I still do not know what to do after school pick-up. The witching hour is 4-6pm. why, oh why???
Helping with homework here.. Nursing baby at the same time. Give snacks... finish prepping dinner... maybe tidy up a bit  because my husband is coming home to a messy house... again....


oh.

I really hope I turn things around.

I don't like to muddle through life. 

Linking up with Holly, Sarah, Doranda, Morgan, Leanne, Elizabeth, Elena,  Madeline,  Jaymie,  Sydney, Danielle, Grace, Brooke.

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confessions {7qt}

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One reason I blog is to have an outlet for confessions. this week, it's all about the dark and ugly (not really!)

1. Addicted to tv
I mentioned on this week's  five faves that I'm in the Castle mood. Well. Here's the rest of the line-up of the videos I borrowed from the library. 

2. Sloth 
I'm embarrassed to admit it but it's a well known fact... I'm the laziest of the laziest. 

3. I forget that Daniel is only 5. 
My eldest and I get into fights the mornings I drop him off at school. If I'm the laziest, he's the slowest.... Every second in the morning is precious. I hate being tardy. My husband reminds me that I still have to "hand-hold" him sometimes and not expect him to follow through with ALL of my commands or requests all the time. 

How about you? What age do you expect independence?

4. I must have peaked in college. 
Some of my med school friends mentioned that they cruised along undergrad but had to step it up for med school  and really study. Those are the geniuses. I, on the other hand, peaked in college. I was boring. I rarely went out. I had to study for this class and complete that project. Boring. 

So in med school, I had to find balance or else I was going to go crazy. I may have earned my MD and my finished my residency but I still need some "oomph" because medicine is a lifelong education thing. Procrastination, go away! 


5. I shut down. 
When one of my babies (you'll probably guess who) cries and whines and fall apart, I shut down. It's the unfortunate defense shutdown bec I remember that infant period with this child. "I fed you, I changed you, I am holding you but you're still crying." What Do You Want? (Pulling my hair!) 


6. Workout partner
It's something for my spouse to sign up as my workout partner. But it's truly remarkable when he does Zumba videos and popsugar booty barre workouts! He's relieved when we workout with this instead. 

7. My last take is not a confession. 
We celebrated St. Sebastian's feastday Tuesday. How beautiful is this rosary he received from his godparents?!

Thanks for making it through the very end. For more quick takes and less confessions ~ head on over to Kelly's! 

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